So, here i sit. At the computer. I know i have things pressing, like making dinner, cleaning up before Jeromy gets home, interacting with the kids. The list goes on and on, and yet I find myself here. I am feeling like a bump on a log today. In fact, the last few days. Is it the weather? Is it me? I am not sure, but i don't like it and can't seem to kick it. My husband would call it a "funk" but i call it motherhood.
Some days are just hard. Some days are long. And now with winter fast approaching, the skies are dark by 5 o'clock. I can feel grumpiness and crabbiness luring me in, but i am doing my best to stand strong against it. If I give into it now, its going to be a REAL long winter.
As i was driving home from choir last night, i had this thought. I just want a break from life. (not in the sad depressed kind of way) I just want to get up in the morning and not feel the weight of my responsibility on my shoulders. I guess what i really want is to be 17 again. But just for a day...or maybe two:)
So, like my blog title. I am going to embrace my place. I am going to get my butt upstairs and cook dinner with a smile. (it may be fake, but its still a smile) I am going to struggle through this difficult time because before i know it, life will be at a whole new pace and i will have missed this glorious stage where the kids need me and like me and think i am funny and want to spend time with me and want to snuggle and want to hold my hand and aren't embarrassed of me...yet.